Looking Forward  

It doesn’t feel like the last day of the year. Really it is just another day on the calendar, but to many, including me it signifies closing a chapter and opening a new one. Out with the old, in with the new. 

A year ago, I was working out the last few days of my notice. Making plans for a new job, and heaving a sigh of relief that all of Eddie’s tests were normal. As I reflect back, it has been a year of change, a year of stress and fear, a year of joy, and a year of new beginnings. 

When cancer come back into our lives, it was one of the hardest things we have ever had to deal with. Watching someone I love so deeply go through surgery and chemo is hard. What keeps me going is how positive he is through all of this, his amazing doctors, and hope for the future. 

It has been a year of change with 2 new jobs. I have met so many people and get to do such cool things, but I also miss my team at Christian HELP and are glad we have stayed connected. I have had to let go of some things too and realize when someone takes your place, the vision is now theirs, not yours. While I miss the job and the people, I know it was time for me to move on. 

Life keeps moving toward, 1 year at a time. I can’t wait to see what 2016 holds. It will be a milestone birthday for me and I will become an empty nester. God has plans for me in the next year and I am looking forward to all it has to offer. 

Here is to a happy, healthy, and prosperous new year!

Unpublished

I have started several blog posts that I never finished. They remain in my que unpublished. Sometimes, I go back and think about finishing them, but the thoughts from that moment are gone.

The past 2 years have been full of emotions for me and for my family. I feel like I have almost “grown up” as I have had to grow stronger. Sometimes, that strength just gives out and I find myself holding back tears as I take in the enormity of all of the things going on around me.

I remember putting together a mission statement for my life at a leadership class at Rollins. Mine was “Live life fully, love deeply, and have no spiritual regrets”. This resounds so much with me today, but in a different way. I have had to learn to enjoy the moment. I used to have to be on the go all the time. I worked 60-70 hours a week often and couldn’t sit still on the weekends. Now it is not uncommon for me to leave work behind at 5:30 when I can, lay in bed watching marathon TV on a Saturday, or just enjoying a quiet moment in prayer. It is the little things that are shaping me and showing me how precious and important life is.

So while some of my posts remain unfinished, my prayer is that my mission statement never finishes.